Pain shoots through my jaw and into my sinuses and eyes. The ache throbs to the rhythm of my heart like a drum getting louder and louder. Decay forces me to cover my mouth when I laugh. I never lean in close to a friend to whisper because of bad…
“Sometimes I worry about what life would be like if you died.” Upon hearing this, I felt a pang of pain in my heart and a knot in my stomach. I looked in the rearview mirror at my 9-year-old son sitting behind me. He was staring out the window deep…
My mouth was dry and my throat burned. It was becoming hard to swallow. I hadn’t been allowed to drink or eat anything for hours because I’d been admitted to the emergency room and was hit with a barrage of tests. A young and apprehensive nurse came in holding a…
Since the COVID-19 pandemic hit, it seems like mental health issues have been discussed more than ever. According to the Mayo Clinic, global surveys in 2020 and 2021 “found higher than typical levels of stress, insomnia, anxiety, and depression.” But even after the height of the pandemic had…
This week’s solar eclipse got me thinking about the last time we had one, in 2017. At the time, I was running a thriving preschool with over 100 students. I’d gone on the trip of a lifetime to the Chichén Itzá Mayan ruins in eastern Mexico. And…
The snap of a nitrile glove going on my nurse’s hand catches my attention and diverts my gaze from my phone. I see her holding a butterfly needle as she prepares to give me my second stick of the day. My heart rate quickens and my body tenses at…
Renal failure, liver failure, hemolytic anemia, 18 blood transfusions, plasmapheresis, dialysis, chemotherapy, post-traumatic stress disorder, heart damage, permanent uterine damage, and a mini-stroke — I never expected any of this, or to be dying at the age of 36. All of this was my introduction to a rare…
Water hits my head for the first time in five long weeks, and feeling it flow down my back is like being reborn. I never knew how much a simple shower could heal my soul. I slowly raise my weak arms to my head and massage in the water. But…
“You’re dying.” That was my introduction to atypical hemolytic uremic syndrome (aHUS), and I’d never heard of it. On that day, my whole world turned upside down. In September 2020, I was at the top of my game. As an active single mom in a new city, I’d purchased…
We take medication to get better after an illness or to keep us healthy when we have a problematic condition. I’ve never liked taking medicines, but with my atypical hemolytic uremic syndrome (aHUS) and several comorbidities, I have a slew of them that keep me alive. But sometimes, unfortunately,…
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